Knowing my worth

I'm not going to sugar coat it. Last week was rough.

My competency at my job was called into question and now I have to start policing coworkers to make sure they are doing their jobs so that we can all get the end result that we need. Leadership is being passive aggressive (a quality I simply can't work around) and the projects continue to mount up for my team of three (myself, a full time employee and a part time employee).

The first few days after all of this happened, I was pretty frustrated and bitter (leadership noticed at a big staff meeting - whoops). And I hate that I was feeling that way. For about 2 days, I really battled my feelings. Then I realized that the negative stuff, though legitimate, wasn't going to serve me. It was only going to hold me back and potentially affect my relationships with my coworkers and boss. Instead of continuing to be frustrated, I decided to use those emotions to fuel my work to turn the situation around in my favor.

In addition to this self realization, I had a couple of really good talks with my boss (probably more than we've ever talked during my year and a half at my job) where he told me that he has my back.

Things will be okay. This isn't the first time I've experienced a problem at a job and it won't be the last. It just doesn't get easier as I work incredibly hard and hold myself up to a very high standard. I don't understand why others can't do the same.

For now, I'm going to quit being bitter and angry and move forward with goals and aspirations. This minor hiccup only makes me want to work harder, which I intend to do.

XOXOX

KS